I'm a big believer in living life and learning lessons from those experiences. Of course, hindsight is always 20/20, but upon reflection I can almost always recall having felt gut instincts or feeling a sense of intuition that I ignored. This instance is no different.
8 days ago I stuck my leg out to protect the powercord and laptop from being catapulted to the floor and ended up with major knee damage. Oddly enough, right before I stuck my leg out, I had a sense of deja vu( for lack of a better description) and had the fleeting instinct to keep my legs curled up on the couch. I ignored my gut instinct and am now left with a complete MCL tear. Not only is my MCL torn completely thru the deep and superficial layers, but it is also pulled away from the femur. Wait...in addition to the MCL damage I also have meniscal damage. Seems that will actually require some surgery to 'clean up' the pieces that are just hanging around in the joint now. So, for the next 3 weeks I am to continue with this hideous leg brace and have ZERO weight bearing. After 6-8 weeks, the doctor will re-evaluate how much healing has taken place on my MCL and then plan to salvage the meniscus.
What have I learned from this lesson? To always listen to that little voice inside of myself and not ignore it. If I had listened to that instinct 8 days ago, I would be writing about the expense of buying a new laptop. Boy, do I sure wish I was bitching about that now instead of being confined to the living room couch and using crutches to get to the bathroom.
I believe in intuition. If only I didn't have to learn it in earnest the hard way.
There are scars, still. Even within the miracles.
3 months ago